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The Dark Triad Trade-off No One Talks About: why performative psychopathy isn’t worth it in the long run

  I’m naturally very high in Dark Triad traits. I’m self-centred, always filtering a plan through “how does it affect me though”. I’m a career salesperson and lifelong social chameleon, and I have selective empathy to protect myself because when it’s activated, it’s ACTIVATED. So I leave my empathy off most of the time. What grinds my gears is seeing these traits I work against myself to overcome be paraded as the silver bullet that will save young men from themselves. I work against this side of me and look for the right amount of empathy to connect without overloading my circuits and bleeding my heart all over the place.  Because that’s what makes life human, real and fun. Throwing that away on purpose is retarded. I also contend with Persistant Demand Avoidance to make this happen. But the powerful combo of Dark Triad, PDA, a Sales Career, years in the Redpill space from a young age, and a bunch of other factors kept me in this dark hole cosplaying as a psycho for years, th...

Autism: Optimised for a World That Doesn’t Exist

It’s over / We’re so back We did what we were told. Invested in competence. Skills. Internal systems. We assumed honesty mattered, that effort compounded, and that mastery eventually translated into stability. We were told to believe the world was a place where cause and effect still loosely lined up. That belief didn’t come from nowhere. Schools rewarded it. Therapists reinforced it. Parents repeated it because it once worked for them. For minds wired toward structure, consistency, and depth, it felt natural. Safe even. And then the world changed before our eyes without bothering to update the contract. We were optimised for environments where accuracy mattered, responsibility had weight, just showing up repeatedly, doing the work, and not bullshitting people built trust over time. That model required patience, memory, and above all else a shared reality. It assumes institutions have some continuity and that rules, while imperfect, were at least real. For a while, this wasn’t a lie. I...